I don’t know how to love this body
I don’t know how to love any body
The intersection of the two,
In the field near your parents’ house
Or the shrinking and cracking
Of my own in the grass alone
If I could change it
What would I want it to be?
A book, thumbed through but never read
The dregs of your morning coffee
A tree, swollen branches cut
If I fell through the world as I am
Or fell as the other option
Both would still be parallax
And in the angle where they meet
And all the empathy that spills out
There is no balance
No stillness
I don’t know how to love this body
In the hills a woman smiles at the landscape
A boy stares in his parents’ mirror
Neither of them exist
Except in the angle where they meet
And all the empathy that spills out
I don’t know how to love this body
Across the sound
And my shattered knee
Tooth on vibrating metal
With performative terror
A hand on pallid face
Sappho in the water
Smearing aloe vera on fractured palms
I have a hospital appointment tomorrow
Blooming beneath the flesh
Basking in the overwhelming everything
You are mapping some part of me
Or just mapping something for me
I wait on the shore:
The lighthouse, you are the pelican
Orchid blooms beneath the chest
Basking in the overwhelming everything
I was born a boy convinced they were special
Now I am something, content to be nothing
Just one of the weeds
And so happy with that
I don’t know why I’m still alive
But I’m glad I know you now
Maybe the universe decided I should stay
I guess it wanted us to be friends
In every hand something is lost
In every hand something remains
In every hand something is lost
I am scared, and I am ashamed
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i LOVE this album, melancholic, dark, a little dreadful...this is the album i put on early in the morning when i want to listen to something but most music feels too "loud," this is the album i put on at night to wind down, this is the album i put on when i'm doing work and want something ambient to accompany it, this is the album i put on when i'm going for a walk as the sun is going down, it just has a really special ambience to it. cloud
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Mumbles remind me of lots of things, none of which I can quite put my finger on.
If you take one chance on an album today, then I kindly suggest you make it this one. this is pop? dj
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